A Hermit Story

13 years of hard work, finally, I’m graduating. We are all graduating!

I thought I’ll be in soaked in the sickening nostalgia and soaked in tears and mucus. Unexpectedly, yes I did, in the tears and mucus of my deary fellow friends, especially CCY who’s leaving Brunei on 30th this month, 4 days later.

“我下次回来的时候，我们一定要再一起跳 Mr.Q 和 Rising Sun。”

That simple line activated my tear ducts instantly. Though we weren’t close friends, but having a chance to know each other and be friends since Primary 5 till now, 7 years, werent that easy.

When I asked him to stop the weepings and sobbings after the ceremony and asked him to go home and rest, he said

“我迟一点才走。我要趁我还在的时候，能够看到汶中的时候就尽量看久一点。以后，或许没有机会看到了。”

And there’s Kelvin, a great guy, a great friend that I cldnt get to hang out with him much. There’s Angie, Chiaw, Wansien, Chiann, Piang, EngYun, SuLee, Aaron, Foo, Kelv, Tony, Josh, Muiz, Peiyi, Yan, Hui, SzYee and of course Anisa who was once my best friend. Sigh, friends come and go they say. Another platonic friendship’s gone. I know with the advanced technology nowadays, we could easily contact our highschool classmates, they are just like one click away. However, for me, there’s different classes of friends of distinct purposes. Some for hanging out, some for spilling out some heart to heart talks, some for crappings, some to keep u company and some for building up ur confidence by random talkings.  Friends arent really bosom friends if you don’t go yamchars, watch movies, shoppings, hang arounds regularly. Just like plants, if you dont water them daily, the plants will surely wilt, regardless of how much fertilisers u’ve sow.

On this special night 25-11-2006, we shouted at the top of our voice to show our supports, we all danced passionately in a pool of principal, teachers and fellow friends, we cried our heart out because it’s finally the harvest of our cultivations all these years, we hugged each other because we knew that that’s the last gathering for all and that we cld never ever spend out night together anymore, we had fun, we had joy, we had the best night ever, the merriest and happiest of all.

Some to MD, some to JIS, some to miri, some to kl, some to aussie. Distractive and busy packed life pulled us apart. We might reunion one day, but we wldnt be that close anymore. We might talk, chat and laugh together like how we used to be but I’m sure there’s an unknown piece of barrier in between us, though we’re physically close, we’re spiritually distant. Sigh, how I wish I could freeze time.

Proud but reluctantly I shall say, I’m officially an ex-chms-ian.

Time passes without us realising. Merciless one.