Filed under: Events
Something is so so UNCOOL! It brought us high up the sky, reached the heaven, greeted angels, played with Cupid’s love arrows and then, in a twinkling, gravity force pulled us right down and there we go, slamming on the ground, yelling and crying out loud in pain. Not the exam. Not the weather. It’s the Graduation Night!
Fashion Show cancelled?! Graduation theme song = PengYou?! No outsiders before the formal ceremony? AhSir filtering and identifying faces infront of Hall’s Maindoor? I’m gna revive The-Oh-So-Boring-Choir? Fashion Show no more! Fashion Today no more! 50’s, 60’s, 70’s lenglois and lengzais no more!!!
Really o-mi-god! Was so so looking forward to the graduation night, the gathering, the F5B Grand Project. F5B’s Last Grand Project! Argh, stop the rantings wen, noone wants sth like tat to happen.
Okay, so it’s 3:13am right now. I’m wide awake. Yes, widout the intake of caffeine. The 3rd night I’m being sleepless. Just finished my physics revision. Not too bad, just started flipping the textbook at straight 10pm. The first page makes me sleepy. The last page makes me feel hopeless. Even the front cover of the book managed to make my eyes shut for a few seconds. Its green isn’t for nothing, green colour makes ur eyes rest, yes, so comfortable that I feel like relaxing it on bed.
My brain keeps thinking of this and that. It’s restless. Even when I go bed, there are still words running and rattling in my brain. A combination of this and that, of the study content, of the graduation ceremony, of my year end vacation, of my future, and even of the eyebags hanging loosely above my cheek. Is this pre-Mental-Breakdown Syndrome? So that’s how I got my NegroBF Dream? Damn it, should stop thinking bout that.
Bah, bedtym..*dozing off*
Quote of the day:
Revisions are for idiots, are you an idiot? – Dr.Hii, Nov 2006
Filed under: BullShiatz
Okay, so I was told that ‘Sleep before mid nyt and wake up before noon to have a smart day’. I doubt it! I sleep at 11 last night, which is really rare for a night cat like me BUT guess what god gave me in return? Nightmares! The freaking nightmares! The one and only night that I rest widout peace. I can still feel the fright in me. Eeeshh~
So I had a muscular and macho Negro as my boyfriend. Well-tanned, with six pad abdominal muscle, strong and hard chest-ed, standing tall at 180cm? However, I couldnt remember his face, I think I didn’t even look at his face for a second.
Anyway, one day, I forgot for watsoever reason, he came my house. And i dno what’s the damn reason that he shot and killed my family with a gun. I saw my family was killed one by one, I heard them screaming and asking for help, trying to survive. All I could do was watching them down, and I could feel the heart-wrenching pain in me. I then hid in my parents room with one of my siblings. We were holding our breath and the atmosphere was so tense that I could hear my heart thumping, the hot blood circulating and rushing within me.
I then took out my cellphone and dialled a group of numbers that I don’t remember at all. I was too frightened by then. Before someone managed to pick up the call, the door was then broken in by my Negro boyfriend. Merciless him shot at the sibling I’m with and she laid on the ground, blood gushing and a pool of blood surrounded her soon.
I ran toward her, and shook her violently, hoping that she would open up her eyes and answer me. However, there was no reply. I tried to escape but too bad, the speed of the bullet overtook me. ‘Boom!’ Another bullet was shot off, on the underside of my foot. ‘Boom!’ Another bullet was planted right on my toe.
I laid on the cold ceramic ground, pretending to be blacken out. No words could explain what a traumatic experience it was. I was thinking that maybe that was just a dream? The pain was real enough, I could feel the numb on my wound. However, having a Negro boyfriend was FAKE enough! But, the pain was so real, what if it’s really in reality?
I got up, and Mr.BFNegro gave me another shot on my thigh. I shouted in pain, asked him to set me free. He came nearer, hugged me tytly wid his arm and said, ‘Baby, I never want to leave you. So I’ll die together with you, you know I always love you!’.
He then raised his arm, I looked up and saw that he’s actually headless! Surely brainless too! Haha, so that’s the reason why he decided to 殉情with me. Taking advantage of his headless and brainless situation, I pushed him away from me. As i ran toward the door, I was thinking, since it’s just a dream, why don’t I just sit there and fool with him? Even if he really shot me dead, it wld cause no harm too. My fear, I dont want to surrender and face my failure.
I thrust through the corpse and got out in the garage. Dad just came back home, along wid mom in car. I opened up the door and got on the car, telling my dad to reverse the car and drive. My voice is so feeble and I know it’s shaky, dad possibly didnt hear my words. He then got in the car in a snail’s pace and when he was reversing the car. My Negroman came out.
This time with a shotgun. He got beside the car, held the gun, aimed, and pulled the trigger. ‘Boom!’ Bullet in dad’s head. Then Negro disappeared. Where did he went? I don’t know. Regret overwhelmed, why did I create such tragedy by bringing home an out of control monster?
Since it was just a dream, why did I sacrifice Dad rather than myself? Why don’t I just die with Negroman in the room rather than risking Dad’s life? This made me realised something. I’m escaping the fact that I’m no longer the one controlling. I’m afraid of losing. I didnt surrender to Negroman because I’m escaping the fact that I lost in the game. He beated me. He won. And arent me selfish too? Sacrificing others rather than myself, and it’s only a dream and I’m already dis selfish. What more to say if it’s in reality?
Negroman, I love you too. So leave me in peace tonight. Stop haunting me will ya?
I’m just afraid of getting into sleep now. Stupid me.
By the way, he is so lengzai! Wait, maybe SHE is so lengzai!
Filed under: Me N Myself
Filed under: Events
It’s November the 7th, and it’s Shien the princess, 16th bday!
Sent a message to her lasnyt,
“Hail to our princess! Happy bday my dear! May ur sweetest 16 fill up with happiness and shower with presents! I’ll definitely grab one for you for sure! We are the ‘fei-est’ friends of all and if i were to choose, i’d lyk to be your friend for, forever! We can, do we? Having such a cutie and sweetie like you as my friend’s makin me feeling blissful! Gift from heaven? haha.. Love you to bits! Muacks! Have a tyt sleep and lots of lots of sweet dreams my dear! See ya tml pretty! =) “
Now, what should i grab from the stores or the mall for her? Hm..
Filed under: RandomRantings
9 more days and I’m no longer the hermit who stays home trying to build up this commensalism relationship with Miss and Mister Books, and goodbye PastYearPapers! Muacks! You guys are the best companions I have in my high school life! But too bad, the party is going to end soon and u guys shall scram to the storeroom and pick up dusts for me in the corner =)
Actually the exam has been quite kind to me, and life has been rather lenient. The only predicament I’ve met is the subject that i suck most, the Malay paper! Just a C6 will do, but God bless i can write fluently for my Eng Papers the day after tomorrow. Gimme a pretty B please!
Graduation ceremony’s just around the corner! Lottta things to prepare! A speech, a dance, a fashion show and maybe an oh-so-boring-choir. How am i going to prepare a speech which is capable of making people go oh-so-lovely and oh-hunky-dory? Hm, that’s a million dollar question! Dance practice? CHECK! 70% gaotim! Memang syoktu! =)
Argh, tat’s all, me hungry! Tym for a lil food and a revision session! Semangat!
Filed under: Brunei
All this while, i thought Brunei is a great place, peaceful, and an almost perfect habitat for me despite it’s ’shortage’ of shopping complex, concerts, celebrities, themeparks, and entertainment. Now only I realise that it’s not such a great place afterall.
Minutes ago, I was browsing on the internet, looking for information about colleges and universities that might help in pursuing my studies next year. And half an hour later, or should i say ‘now’, i’m so damn frustated with the educational level in Brunei. Where’s the Minister of Education? Will you please kindly stand out and be a great savior to all of the students who are going to stick their arses in Brunei for the rest of their life like adding more courses available in UBD or do anything that helps promoting the education in the local area?
Type ‘foundation studies in brunei’ or ‘diploma programmes in brunei’ then you’ll know what i’m talking about. There’s only few ’college’ providing a higher level of studies in Brunei like Maktab Duli, UBD, IGS, Laksamana College, Cosmopolitan with courses like Business, A Levels, Accounting, Finance, Computer Studies, Business, A Levels, Accounting. Where’s the variety? Where’s the ‘creativity’? Where’s the Foundation In Art? Or maybe South Australian Matriculation? Is there any other foundation studies other than A Levels, A Levels and A Levels?
Now i understand why everyone is trying to squeeze their arses and get in Maktab Duli for A Levels. When there’s no second choice, you’ll hafta settle down with the only option u got. Ask MissAnne where she’s going after O Levels and she’ll say ‘Maktab Duli kua..’ then when u turn around and ask Mr.Bean, you’ll get ‘A Levels in MD eh?’ as the answer. Try asking Miss Cindy, Mr McD or MissEeeee, the answers should be the same. If there’s exception, then guess his or her answer shld be ‘i dno’ or maybe he or she might be another traitor escaping to Malaysia or Australia.
Malaysia? They have Curtin, Taylors, Sunway, USM, Monash, UCSI, LKW(LICT), KDU, KBU, IMU, Prime, IBS, Inti, AIMST, HELP, Swinburne, Nottingham, The One Academy, RIAM and the list goes on. Brunei? ISB, JIS, UBD, MD, and what else? Oh, and STPRI too, almost forgot bout it.
But still, Brunei, the well-known Abode of Peace, is the best place in the world or those taiwanese who said ‘Brunei is the richest country in the world’ everytime they got a chance to interview wuzun. That is, if your ic is in bright yellow colour. If it’s in green, you can choose to scram back to ur native country or work like a kerbau here.
Filed under: BullShiatz
I believe everyone’s in search of motivation and trying their best to keep away from the greatest enemy, distractions.
We brilliant and capable human invented and found lotta ways to overcome problems we met in daily lifes. For insects, we have insecticides. For pests, we have pesticides. And we even have fungicides to kill fungis. However, why noone with the intellectual is willing to squeeze their brain and think of a way for us to deal with those destestable distractions? Why isnt there the invention of ‘distracticides’ for us to banish all those abhorrent filthy distractions? Like shieldtox, spray and byebye mosquitoes! Come on, where’s those guys with an iq of 160 and above? We students need them so desperately.
And what about this thing called ‘motivation’? No motivation, no study mood, no revisions done, more time wasted on myriad and unimportant acts such as gluing eyes on the tvs(what i always do) or daydreaming without realising that time is flying(what im doing everyday), resulting in bad results and thus, eternal regrets. Where’s those motivation pills? When will they be available and in stock in the nearby pharmacy? Motivation snacks u say? Not bad, should be in large demand as long as it’s low in calories, low fat, NO, FAT-FREE!
Maybe in years to come, i might be the great inventor of distracticides and motivation pills! And my name would shine in glories. But im damn sure before the day comes, i should get myself involved in biotechnology. What? Biotech involves biology? Stupid me, if bio is nt involved in biotech, why on earth is it called biotech? God, guess i should put more efforts on my bio. It’s already too late? Neverthemind, 迟到好过不到。
I’m actually taking a break from my biology session which lasted for 30 minutes just now. I wish i cld continue revising but look at the clock, it’s short needle is pointing 2 and the long one pointing at 5. It’s 2:25am right now. Past my bedtym. Good girls should be on bed by now. I am one, so goodnyt bad boys and girls.
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As u can see, well, im writing and is actually publishing it online! You dont think it’s something ought to be treat in a special way? Really? Not even a tiny bit? Okay, you can scram off now. ShooShoo!
What? You’re still here? Then i guess you are actually interested in what im going to write right? It’s okay, curiosity kills the cat so stay only if you feel delighted in my playground.
Anywee, what brought me to open up a public blog up here? Er, simple, i’ve got nothing better to do =) I know i know, exams are just around the corner and im suppose to allow my computer to hibernate for the mean time. But hey, i wont feel right if i didnt caress my keyboard for a day, just like how u dont feel right when u didnt shower or bath for a whole day. Okay, too much craps i know. I’ll just shut my mouth up right now and enjoy my day off by gluing my eyes on the tv. Satisfy?
